2011... Woo Hoo!

Hello 2011! It's great to finally see you! This year has started off on a great note!

I finally got a job!!! :D I'm the new Manager at Sally Beauty Supply! I start training on the 10th in Midland, Tx then the district manager will come here to San Angelo and train me another week. I'm so excited! I can't wait! With tons of calls to my dad and help from him I think that I will be just fine. :O) I've met the employee's they are super nice... I think we're all going to be a fantastic team. :D This opens of so many doors for me! Maybe one day I'll have my own salon and without a problem be able to manage it. ;0) Eeee!

This Christmas was the first Christmas that I have ever spent away from my family. I was so weird to wake up Christmas morning without seeing my mommy and daddy's face and having out tradition Ham biscuits for breakfast that mom spent all night baking in the oven. It was definitely weird not going to my granny's. I definitely missed that.... seeing all the family. But Gerard and I made our own Christmas. We finally got to start out own traditions. It was a very bitter sweet day. I'm very thankful for my husband because he made the day amazing. He helped me adjust in anyway that he could. Doing anything to make keep that smile on my face. I love him. He takes very good care of me. New years was the same way... kinda boring cause we stayed home and it was just the two of us but that what we needed. Next year we'll go big lol.

I hoping this year will bring lots of great moments for everyone! Full of great health, love, and happiness!

Looking forward to the rest of the year and planning trips home :D

This is short and sweet.... kinda distracted and excited about the new job! I'm oober excited! :D :Love everyone! Mwahs!

Kelly Jo! More Pictures

This is the Lamb i got her. Happy moment. :o)

Happy Birthday Kelly Jo: 9.30.10

KELLY JO!!!! She's finally here!

Precious Kelly Jo Faglier! We've waited a long time for you! You're finally here and loved by so many! I don't know the exact time she was born but mommy was induced I believe around 7am and arrived alittle before 2pm. She cracks me up already. She is going to be one of those baby's, toddlers, kid, tween, teen...eventually adult that is going to do everything in her own time. Even when she was induced she took her time and weighing in at 9lbs 2 oz! She is adorable though. I can't wait to hold her. My little niece. My mom said that Stephanie was flawless! And both she and baby are very healthy! :D I was looking at the pictures that everyone was taking for me and I opened the one of My sister and Kelly Jo. Even after labor my sister looked beautiful and incredibly happy. She looked so natural with Kelly Jo in her arms and looked into her eyes like Kelly Jo is her world. Which I think is perfect! Josh looked great to! He looked like an excited puppy holding Kelly Jo. He's such a proud daddy and Kelly Jo already has him around her precious little fingers. God gave them an incredible gift. And it's awesome to see that they know that. They know she is a gift from God. I think they are going to be incredible parents. God chose them for Kelly Jo. They are going to be fantastic parents.

My parents are super excited as well! They are finally grandparents! My mom looked so happy holding her. The picture of my dad is priceless. And cameron well he had that goofy smile with those glassy eyes and you just know that he is proud and excited all over. I have to admit it was really .... just a totally different feeling when i saw the pictures of my mom and dad holding her. The pictures are literally worth a thousand words and not just and desriptive words but words that describe how they feel at that moment. over joyed, proud, speechless... i can't even describe it. They just have that look of "my daughter is grown and has given this wonderful gift" they are just very proud parents and grandparents. wow i need to think about what i'm trying to say. i think it's just an overwhelming feeling to me to see the pictures that there are no words to describe.

But Kelly Jo is here and she and mommy will be going home tomorrow or saturday. They, including Josh, will have plenty of love and help. I'll be done to hold little Kelly Jo soon and give her mommy and daddy and my mommy daddy and brother big ole hugs!

One last thing though. This made me cry like a baby. I called this morning about 9 oclock (in tx) to talk to my sister and of course me being curious was like "did the epidural hurt?" "are you going to feel it when you push?" haha she answered then and quickly said to me "Chris, I brought the lamb you gave to her." I cried like a baby. I still cry thinking about it. It meant so much to me and I was truely touched that even though i wasn't there my sister wanted me there for her and Kelly Jo in some way. That gives me an incredibly happy heart. Then she made sure i was still coming to visit in two weeks and i said "yes ma'am!!!!"

This morning Gerard was bouncing off the walls saying " I'm gonna be uncle ga-ward! and you're gonna be aunt bee!" haha he was so happy. He was getting so antsy until Kelly Jo got here! then he saw the pictures and said ( AND I QUOTE) "I want one!" I looked and said REALLY!!! he shock he head like I can't believe that just came out my mouth and said... well maybe only for 20 minutes to play with. lol! i love him!

Anywho I'll stop now so you can look at some pictures....

Mommy and baby

Daddy and Baby and uncle cam in the back ground


Kelly Jo


Baby and Grandma Ceha

Baby and Grandpa

Foose!

The new addition to our family! Foose! He's so stinkin cute and so lovable and sweet and did I mention house trained! He's an adorable 3 month old schnauzer chihuahua mix. We got him from the local animal shelter and he's a doll baby. I've always been told that you can get the greatest dogs from a shelter and it's the truth! I can't wait to spoil him. right now he just taking everything in and relaxing. very skiddish but improving by the hour. :D btw Foose was the hubby's idea. We were suppose to get a girl and name her shelby after Carrol Shelby. A little boy chose us and Gerard decided to go with Foose after Chip Foose..... men.

For God’s vision to be impressed on our hearts, we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time.

Where there is no vision, the people perish.(Proverbs 29:18 KJV)

Waiting upon God is vital in order to see Him and receive a vision from Him. And the amount of time spent before Him is also critical, our hearts are like a photographer’s film—the longer exposed, the deeper the impression. For God’s vision to be impressed on our hearts, we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time. Remember, the troubled surface of a lake will not reflect an image.

I've noticed 2 things in my life. The harder I try to get what I want the harder, almost nearly impossible, it is for me to get. And the more I pray about what I want the more it falls apart. why? It's not what God wants me to do. I'm not being still. I'm not listening. I can't hear God for all the noise and distractions that the world and the distractions I cause myself that are around me. Well boo on me! All the failures... now a slap (that makes sense) in the face.

Let me be the first to tell you that I did not listen the first time nor the second nor the third. I can't remember how many times God tried to tell me to listen and I just keep going along doing what I wanted because it's what I wanted. I really don't feel like going into detail but i'm gonna kinda accidentally mention some my stupid moments.

Cosmetology school was no easy task. I actually hated it. I fought everyday. Missing grades, missing hours, teachers who literally said "you've got 5 hours... keep busy" while they did there own thing like pay bills and talk on their cell phones. I'm not making this stuff up. Thinking back on it I didn't enjoy it at all and I felt completely our of place. I never felt like I belonged.

Before I was done with school I started to apprentice at a salon that my hair stylist partly owned. it was cute and I thought it was great! Plus I had 2 great people including my stylist take me under there wings! I loved it! I was happy! But then.... dun dun duuuunnnnn! Things went down the crapper. The person whom I apprenticed under made my life hell and alot of other people's. While practicing on my mannequin she called me to her station and flat out told me to rethink working in her salon and rethink my career. well that didn't make me think it just pissed me off. many more things happened and needless to say I called her out and gave her a piece of my mind. But my whole experience at that salon was "it's a good day" or "it's just a bad day. you can't have all good." I felt i didn't belong. I just felt I was passing the time and hanging out. In the middle of that year I began to pray. I asked God to take control of my career path. If this was it then I was all up for it. If not I was willing to start over.

It wasn't until I was in San Angelo that I took my own prayer seriously. Instead of praying "please let me find a great salon" I started to pray "Your will is my will. Show me know what You want me to do". YUPPERS be frickin careful on what you ask for. Things started falling apart more and more and the more I actually stopped enjoying doing hair. My whole attitude is changing. It continues to. I actually see myself with options like going back to school and new careers. I'm getting the energy and the excitement to go and research new careers! You think you've got everything figured out and you're settled and you're like "i'm gonna do this the rest of my life and can live with it" but then a rock gets thrown in you're little pond and if causes ripples and you freak out and can't handle it and you get scared. and what was your safe haven... the one YOU CHOSE is chaotic. I don't know about you but I thank God for that rock because He knew i was going nowhere and would eventually "be safe" in my little pond. I don't wanna "be safe"! What challenges and missions and opportunities would that give me that was FOR GOD!? psh i don't know either.... I'm gonna go with "no answer" for that one because I don't think that there is one.

Anywho what I'm trying to say is is that I was too busy fighting for what I wanted and not listening to what God wanted me to do. So He basically had to slap my stubborn butt around for a while until I would listen. I kinda figured that out today when I was laid off from the salon that I hated working at. My life wasn't getting easier. It was getting harder and I was doing it to myself. Maybe I'm not suppose to do hair. so what. Or maybe I am. but now I'm going to take much needed time of mediation and listen to what God wants me to do. He'll let me know... Hair or another career. It's not going to be easy BUT I can bet you it's going to be way easier than what I was doing to myself.

For God’s vision to be impressed on our hearts, we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time.

Heck Yea! Welcome Back Christy!

I feel like my old self again! Happy and excited! Still alittle nervous and homesick but i'm really starting to enjoy Tx! Cra-Azy! I know! Everything has been going well. Work is kinda starting to suck. I'm tired of salon drama and being used. so needless to say since I'm only 24 I can change careers without a second thought. which is nice. so I've started filling out apps for different jobs. I'm even looking at other salons. cause maybe it's the one that I'm in. I'm just getting really bored. If I'm lucky I'll get to do a color or a highlight once a week but never both in one week. I'm just tired of cutting someone's hair and they leave with it wet cause they are going to PT or just tying it up anyways. the challenges are gone. Anywho I may even go back to school. I want a career not a job. ;0)

Guess what!!!!! We are getting a PUPPY!!!!! I'm sooo flippin excited!!!! We are going to the animal shelter whenever we work out a pet deposit with the realtors. I can't wait to take pictures and post them! I'm so gonna spoil her! We already came up with a name lol. Gerard and I came up with a name before we even got married. haha. I can't wait to have a puppy follow me around the house and look up at me with those cute puppy dog eyes or play ball in the backyard! ahh so excited!

38 Days until I'm back in GA! I can't wait! I get to see my mommy and daddy and chubs (brother) and stessy and josh and granny! but most importantly... well 2nd to mommy and daddy is that I get to see KELLYJO! I'm going to be an aunt someday next week and I can't wait to see her! I'm gonna take tons of pictures of her too!

On a random note I really love the reality show Big Brother and I actually just filled out the application for the next season! It was alot of fun! filing it out I remembered how fun and outgoing and witty I am just filling it out. I've been down in the dumps so much lately that I forgot how I really am. People here don't really know how I am. I gotta stay out of this funk! :D It's way more fun! Anywho I'm excited about sending it in. Gerard thinks it's funny. Either way filling out the app was definitely a reminder to me that i really needed. ;o)

Humm... whatelse. can't really think of anything. I'm just really glad my attitude is changing! Welcome back Christy!

Christy, how old are you again? - I'm 13.

So... It's been a ridiculously long time. This blog was meant to be something to keep everyone updated and informed about my new life with my husband in Texas. Sorry... I'm a slacker. So the punishment is that I have ALOT to type. And sorry that you have a lot to read. :o) Let me start off with I MISS MY FAMILY LIKE CRAZY!!! Texas will not be home for me. It just feels like a long "ok" vacation. I've had tons of friends and family tell me that I've grown up so much in the past 2 years. That I'm finally getting my blessings and all that I've worked for and deserved. I wish I saw what they saw. Since day one this has been a struggle for me. How come if "everything is good and a blessing" why am I struggling. Why do I feel like I'm in a constant battle to be happy and wear a smile on my face? I'm sure by the time I'm done with this blog I'll answer it myself like I always do. Like i said before this blog is like my own Therapy. Anyways, I've noticed that once one struggle is overcome the next one is right around the corner. No deep breaths. No time to let the feeling of accomplishment sink in. No time to relax or take it easy. No time to enjoy the sense of accomplishment. What does that feel like anyways? I feel like God sometimes expects to much of me OR either I underestimate myself constantly. He's always throwing things my way. Making me stronger yes BUT at the same time making me weak and tired. I shouldn't complain tho, right. I mean God knows what I can handle. So He won't give me more than I can handle. But man does he come close. Prayer apparently gets me in trouble. Haha. We want one thing, we ask for it then complain about the manner how it's "given" to us. I emphasized given because 99% of the time we have to work for it. I mean really. I know that God isn't just going to give me something cause I asked for it. He's gonna make sure that I KNOW what I'm asking for. It's like you asking your parents for something and they ask 2 or 3 times "are you sure you want that?" "You sure you know what you're doing?" OR maybe God is trying to get me to show that I'll do what it takes to get it cause that's how much it means to me. Don't give me that look... these are my conclusions. :o) I've said before that a couple of years ago when nothing was really going on in my life, day by day would go by with no challenges, that I wanted God to take me out of my shell. Take me places. USE ME! I felt ignored as a Child of God. I'd see daily that He was using others but not me. My life was at a stand still. I prayed for this for 2 YEARS......and holy crap BAM! I was knocked on my face! As soon as i got back up He was doing things and taking me here and there and putting all these people in my life! I constantly feel so overwhelmed. I've finally learned how to deal and cope with it. Deep Breaths.... live minute by minute. I can't plan a week in advance anymore.... it's literally minute by minute. On that note A.D.D sucks! I constantly see where and how I'm needed. It's hard for me to start one thing and finish it because I instantly see something or hear someone that needs me. whether it's an shoulder an ear or just the company. it's hard to be everywhere at once. BUT I make it a point to complete "God's missions" no matter how big or small or how important or not important it is before i go to another. This is much more of a challenge now being 18 hours away but it is still doable. It makes me wonder what God is going to do with me here. I've noticed that He has given me a few days to breath and to learn my surroundings and relax... how long this will last? I have noooo flippin idea. But with Him all things ARE possible AND accomplishable. So knowing that I say "I'm ready when You are!" :D However right now right in this very minute I am struggling with myself. Self doubt. Loneliness. Emotions. ACCEPTING the fact that God Himself put me here. He put me in this situation. He put me in this state. He took me away from my family. He now wants me to rely on myself and my husband BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY FULLY RELY ON HIM. I can't say that I wish i never even had the wings to jump from the nest because I know that God is and always will be my guardian and won't let anything happen to me. I figured it out! I'm scared. Without my parents I know have to fully rely on God. Apparently I've never done that before... I've relied on my parents. They always saved me. I know that this is hard for them too because they can't protect me anymore. I'm on my own. Like me they have to put all their trust in God. I'm NOT saying they don't.... I'm just saying that whether anyone knows that or not it's still hard.
Oh this Blog is going so many different places at once. I'm jumping all over but it's all coming out. You know what's weird. I look at people all the time and say "it must be great to be grown up and do what you want and make thing happen and go places." I honestly still see myself as a 13 year old. I still feel I can't do things because I'm to young or I don't have permission or cause I can't go past the end of the street. I'm in Texas! How many people wish they had this opportunity? I'm traveling! I'm meeting new people! Get to do amazing things. But i still feel like a kid. I don't know how I'll over come this. Maybe this is God's next mission for me. to discover like other people have, who I am and what I'm capable of. I've been bugging Gerard about a baby for the longest time and poor him when my Sister found out she was pregnant I bugged him more. The other day he told me he was ready. He wanted to start a family. After all our one year anniversary is next month. But when he told me this my heart stopped my stomach jumped and I lost all feeling in my body... it freaked me out. I told him no... I was too scared! I'm still 13... I can't have a baby! I can babysit them but I can't have my own! I felt like everyone still saw me as a 13 yr old and would think I couldn't handle it. and I believed them! I can't in anyway see myself with a baby. I'm too young. Too selfish. Too naive....

My problem... I underestimate myself.

God help me. Help me to see myself as who I am. Help me to see how strong you've made me. Help me to see the women I've become. God don't let me go but hold my hand along the way. Open my eye's to how far You've brought me. When I look in the mirror and see a 13 year old and all my flaws and fears I want You to show me the woman you've shaped and molded me to be. Help the light inside me come out for all to see but most importantly for me to see. God I don't believe this to be a selfish prayer. But a cry for help to make me see what You see in me. God use me and continue to shape and mold me. Don't ever let me become satisfied with who I am as a Christian. I want to continue to do you're works and never stop trying to be like you. Because when we get satisfied with ourselves we quit praying. we quit asking for your help. I never want to be satisfied. I always want to seek you and have a daily walk and relationship with You. Lord, I ask of this in Your name. Amen.

6 Days

Wow! Our apartment is an insane mess! Ha-ha. I'm getting excited and nervous and sad. I'm a hot mess. One thing that has made the past couple of days great is that my sister had her babyshower for little Kelly Jo. It was incredible! She had such a great time and it was great to see all the women in the family come together for a new life! Women from our side of the family and Josh's side of the family. Everyone "ooo'd" and "ahh'd" ( my bad on the spelling.... i haven't a clue) and even the silly "awww's" it was a good feeling. I looked around and this feeling kinda came over me.... i realized that all these women have given life and what a huge blessing it was. I realized that if God hadn't planned out all these women's lives and they hadn't trusted God then can you imagine what the numbers in that room would be? 1...2...3... maybe none. I thought back to my granny and all the stories she told me of her family and how her family is from Florida and that one decision someone made to come to South Carolina where she met my grandfather and decided to start a family and have five kids. where they grew up. where my dad met my mom and they decided to start a family and move to Georgia where Stephanie met josh and are now getting ready to have a little Kelly Jo. They each Trust God and had a relationship with him... it made me look at my life and my next move and not be so scared. Great things happen when you just follow Him. When you completely Trust in Him. So who knows what's in store for me. I'm always going to have my family and no matter where I am i know they are always going to have my back so why not go. well, better said, why not be happy about going. cause i kinda have to go. haha. anywho the baby shower really opened my eyes. Stephanie looks beautiful. she's such a pretty happy mommy-to-be. my mom and dad are oober excited! I'm excited... the pressure is off me and Gerard to have a baby lol. But we have talked about it and we both over excited about the thought of having kids... but we also sorta wanna live by ourselves alittle bit and have our happy alone time. you can call it selfish... I've been told that but i don't care. I'm only 24 and gerard is 25.... we have plenty of time. we were talking about trying summer of 2012. by then maybe gerard wont be as much as a big kid by then.... oh who am i kidding.... i love him!

22 Days

22 days and counting. Not so much excited. This is a first time in about 2 weeks. I thought that I was mentally prepared for the moved. I was excited, giddy, anxious.... but last night Gerard and I went to his last Softball game for the Air Force and everyone was telling us "bye", "Safe travels", "if i don't see you again have fun and keep in touch" it started to hit me. We really were moving and it's just around the corner. literally! On the ride home from the game last night i didn't talk. i started to cry. That started a long night of crying. I'd think about TX and get excited. New sites, new people, new adventure, new and different life with my husband, new puppy, a house of our own.... but then I'd think about the morning we would be leaving.... hugging mom, hugging dad and the tears started and wouldn't stop. i actually had to get out of bed and lay on the couch so i wouldn't keep Gerard up. I keep telling myself that I'll be back in 2 months when my niece is born and then for Christmas but i couldn't get that image of my hugging my parents and telling them bye out of my head. so then i thought don't tell them "bye" cause it's not appropriate anyways. I'm going to see them in 2 months so why not "see you soon" or "see you later", eh? makes sense to me.

To be honest I'm really excited the actual move. It's going to take me and Gerard to the next level. I'm so use to going to my parents for everything. I'm married and I still run to them. When we move I'm going to have to completely rely on my husband. Hello I'm married! should have doing that from the get go. but if you know me then you already know that i have been completely sheltered. I know Gerard has to feel a little left out, maybe umm discredited as a husband because I don't go running to him or relying on him like i should. actually making him feel like a husband/ provider/ protector etc. So moving will definitely be a huge advantage for our marriage.

like I said i am so excited about moving. there are so many pros. I'm just a little girl and I'm sad to be leaving my family. I told God before Gerard and I met that I willing and ready to make the sacrifices in my life and follow Him and grow.... jump in head first, but I didn't know I'd have to sacrifice my family. For most people this isn't a big deal. For me it's the biggest of all and God knows that. In my head I knew that i could never get by without my family. I couldn't handle life. I relied on them for everything. most important comfort and safety. Yep, God knows that too. I guess... no, i know He knows that I would couldn't grow, wouldn't allow myself to grow if I didn't come out from under my parents wings. I've told most people that I was suppose to be the daughter that happily has a family living next door or atleast in the same neighborhood as my parents. That's not growing. That's not trusting God and allowing Him let me grow as His child. As His child He "let me go" and trusted my parents to take care of me and give me that love, comfort and knowledge that only they could give to let me go to the next path God has laid out. Now that my parents has greatly accomplished this God has said "it's time. take everything your parents have taught you and jump from the nest. I promise you won't fall. I'll help you fly. AND I'll help you through the rough winds you'll encounter. I'll take care of you." Don't call me crazy for i have heard these words myself and with my faith I have I'll climb to the edge and without fear I'll jump and fly on my very own wings. The wings God gave me and the wings my parents helped grow and nurture.

Every time I post a blog and lay my heart out I actually see in words what's in my heart and head and it makes me feel way more comforted. I feel better about things. Stronger about them. I've always been a visual person... I need to blog more often. I start in one place and sorta end in another but it all makes sense to me. This isn't for the people who read it. It's for me. So if you do happened to read this and it doesn't make sense I'm sorry i can't help you. This is the only way I know and understand how to explain it.... to myself ;0)

That sucks

My husband and I has successfully manage to get rid of both our vehicles within a month. A month ago we traded in my 2005 Honda Civic for a 2012 Mustang GT. I have to add that it's a frickin manual that I somewhat know how to drive but am just to scared to drive alone. sooo i've been driving the F-150 that I wrecked yesterday and is believed to be totaled. I'm just very thankful that we did decide to trade in my civic and I was "stuck" driving the truck. because if i were driving civic yesterday i wouldn't be here to write this blog.

The story: a friend from work and I were going to the mall to pass out business cards. we were on south belair road (4 lanes) and there was a bus on the other side with lights flashing and stop sign out letting kids off on the other side of the road. so i stopped ( cause that's what you're suppose to do lol) and about 3 secs later we got reared by an explorer going at least 45 and never used her brakes. the only things i remember are people talking and asking me questions. i apparently was dazed. i looked over at Drea and they already had a neck brace on her and were putting something around her to brace her back. they were literally wrapping her up and tying her in it. i then remember them putting a brace around my neck. they put Drea on a stretcher and got her out. we had to wait on another ambulance for me because i had to go Eisenhower Hospital on Base. they loaded me on the stretcher and put me in an ambulance. i remember everything that happened in the ambulance and the hospital. one of the guys in the ambulance asked me "what year is it?" i said 2010. he then asked me who was president and i laughed and said obama. they both laughed at me and said "good girl" lol.

the hospital report said that i had neck strain and a mild concussion. they gave me some fantastic meds that made me waaaay loopy. lol. i'm doing well today. just sore and a small headache. my amazing hubby was able to get the night off work and stayed up all night to keep a close eye on me. i love him so much and has been babying me and giving me an unbeleiable about of attention. i love him so much and am so grateful for him. I thank God that Drea and I both are ok. like i said if we were in my civic we wouldn't have made it. I miss my car but am thankful God wanted to get it out of my life for a reason. i loved that little car. OMG and do you know what the crazy thing is?! Gerard and I went to the Lot to go take pictures of the car and were going home on bobby jones and i'm dozzing off and i hear Gerard say "there's your civic! No Joke!" i turn to look and it was my little civic going down bobby jones with a Bobby Jones Ford (where we traded it in for the mustang) temporary tag on the back with a new owner driving. it was so crazy!