For God’s vision to be impressed on our hearts, we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time.

Where there is no vision, the people perish.(Proverbs 29:18 KJV)

Waiting upon God is vital in order to see Him and receive a vision from Him. And the amount of time spent before Him is also critical, our hearts are like a photographer’s film—the longer exposed, the deeper the impression. For God’s vision to be impressed on our hearts, we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time. Remember, the troubled surface of a lake will not reflect an image.

I've noticed 2 things in my life. The harder I try to get what I want the harder, almost nearly impossible, it is for me to get. And the more I pray about what I want the more it falls apart. why? It's not what God wants me to do. I'm not being still. I'm not listening. I can't hear God for all the noise and distractions that the world and the distractions I cause myself that are around me. Well boo on me! All the failures... now a slap (that makes sense) in the face.

Let me be the first to tell you that I did not listen the first time nor the second nor the third. I can't remember how many times God tried to tell me to listen and I just keep going along doing what I wanted because it's what I wanted. I really don't feel like going into detail but i'm gonna kinda accidentally mention some my stupid moments.

Cosmetology school was no easy task. I actually hated it. I fought everyday. Missing grades, missing hours, teachers who literally said "you've got 5 hours... keep busy" while they did there own thing like pay bills and talk on their cell phones. I'm not making this stuff up. Thinking back on it I didn't enjoy it at all and I felt completely our of place. I never felt like I belonged.

Before I was done with school I started to apprentice at a salon that my hair stylist partly owned. it was cute and I thought it was great! Plus I had 2 great people including my stylist take me under there wings! I loved it! I was happy! But then.... dun dun duuuunnnnn! Things went down the crapper. The person whom I apprenticed under made my life hell and alot of other people's. While practicing on my mannequin she called me to her station and flat out told me to rethink working in her salon and rethink my career. well that didn't make me think it just pissed me off. many more things happened and needless to say I called her out and gave her a piece of my mind. But my whole experience at that salon was "it's a good day" or "it's just a bad day. you can't have all good." I felt i didn't belong. I just felt I was passing the time and hanging out. In the middle of that year I began to pray. I asked God to take control of my career path. If this was it then I was all up for it. If not I was willing to start over.

It wasn't until I was in San Angelo that I took my own prayer seriously. Instead of praying "please let me find a great salon" I started to pray "Your will is my will. Show me know what You want me to do". YUPPERS be frickin careful on what you ask for. Things started falling apart more and more and the more I actually stopped enjoying doing hair. My whole attitude is changing. It continues to. I actually see myself with options like going back to school and new careers. I'm getting the energy and the excitement to go and research new careers! You think you've got everything figured out and you're settled and you're like "i'm gonna do this the rest of my life and can live with it" but then a rock gets thrown in you're little pond and if causes ripples and you freak out and can't handle it and you get scared. and what was your safe haven... the one YOU CHOSE is chaotic. I don't know about you but I thank God for that rock because He knew i was going nowhere and would eventually "be safe" in my little pond. I don't wanna "be safe"! What challenges and missions and opportunities would that give me that was FOR GOD!? psh i don't know either.... I'm gonna go with "no answer" for that one because I don't think that there is one.

Anywho what I'm trying to say is is that I was too busy fighting for what I wanted and not listening to what God wanted me to do. So He basically had to slap my stubborn butt around for a while until I would listen. I kinda figured that out today when I was laid off from the salon that I hated working at. My life wasn't getting easier. It was getting harder and I was doing it to myself. Maybe I'm not suppose to do hair. so what. Or maybe I am. but now I'm going to take much needed time of mediation and listen to what God wants me to do. He'll let me know... Hair or another career. It's not going to be easy BUT I can bet you it's going to be way easier than what I was doing to myself.

For God’s vision to be impressed on our hearts, we must sit in stillness at His feet for quite a long time.