6 Days

Wow! Our apartment is an insane mess! Ha-ha. I'm getting excited and nervous and sad. I'm a hot mess. One thing that has made the past couple of days great is that my sister had her babyshower for little Kelly Jo. It was incredible! She had such a great time and it was great to see all the women in the family come together for a new life! Women from our side of the family and Josh's side of the family. Everyone "ooo'd" and "ahh'd" ( my bad on the spelling.... i haven't a clue) and even the silly "awww's" it was a good feeling. I looked around and this feeling kinda came over me.... i realized that all these women have given life and what a huge blessing it was. I realized that if God hadn't planned out all these women's lives and they hadn't trusted God then can you imagine what the numbers in that room would be? 1...2...3... maybe none. I thought back to my granny and all the stories she told me of her family and how her family is from Florida and that one decision someone made to come to South Carolina where she met my grandfather and decided to start a family and have five kids. where they grew up. where my dad met my mom and they decided to start a family and move to Georgia where Stephanie met josh and are now getting ready to have a little Kelly Jo. They each Trust God and had a relationship with him... it made me look at my life and my next move and not be so scared. Great things happen when you just follow Him. When you completely Trust in Him. So who knows what's in store for me. I'm always going to have my family and no matter where I am i know they are always going to have my back so why not go. well, better said, why not be happy about going. cause i kinda have to go. haha. anywho the baby shower really opened my eyes. Stephanie looks beautiful. she's such a pretty happy mommy-to-be. my mom and dad are oober excited! I'm excited... the pressure is off me and Gerard to have a baby lol. But we have talked about it and we both over excited about the thought of having kids... but we also sorta wanna live by ourselves alittle bit and have our happy alone time. you can call it selfish... I've been told that but i don't care. I'm only 24 and gerard is 25.... we have plenty of time. we were talking about trying summer of 2012. by then maybe gerard wont be as much as a big kid by then.... oh who am i kidding.... i love him!